Understanding Attention, Ego, and the Field of Truth
Many spiritual seekers spend their lives trying to purify themselves, improve themselves, or save themselves. Implicit in all these efforts is one hidden assumption: that there is someone there who needs to be fixed.
But what if the “someone” cannot be found?
During a deep experience of stillness, a revelation appeared—not as a philosophy, but as a lived truth. In the vastness of infinite space, filled with peace, freedom, and presence, forgiveness was requested. The response was unexpected:
“To forgive your sins, I have to see the sinner.”
And yet, no sinner could be found.
There was no body.
No identity.
No entity.
Only space—alive, silent, and whole.
This was not a poetic metaphor. It was a direct insight: in Truth, the sinner cannot exist. Truth itself is the graveyard of the sinner.
Why the Ego Cannot Enter Truth
The “sinner,” the “actor,” the “me,” or what we usually call the ego, does not disappear through effort or purification. It disappears because it cannot step into Truth.
Truth is not a moral state.
Truth is not an achievement.
Truth is not something you enter.
Truth is what remains when the ego is no longer powered.
And this is where the understanding of Attention becomes essential.
Attention Is Not With You
Attention Is the “I”
Most people believe attention belongs to them:
- “I am paying attention”
- “My attention is on this thought”
But the revelation was clear:
“The attention is not with you.
The attention is the I.”
Attention is not a tool of the self.
Attention is awareness itself.
What usually appears as “me” is actually attention fused with thought.
The Real Composition of the Ego
A common misunderstanding on the spiritual path is believing that the ego is made only of thoughts. This is incomplete.
The ego is not thought alone.
Thoughts are harmless movements.
The ego is created when:
Attention + Thought = Ego
When attention gives itself to a thought, the thought becomes real, personal, and alive. Identity is born in that moment.
Without attention, thoughts pass like clouds.
With attention, thoughts become “me,” “my story,” “my fear,” “my past,” “my future.”
Attention is the life force of the ego.
Clean Attention vs. Contaminated Attention
In the experience of Truth, something extraordinary happens:
- Thoughts still exist
- Perceptions still occur
- The world continues
But attention no longer sticks.
This is what was revealed as Clean or Pure Attention.
Clean attention:
- Does not merge with thought
- Does not create identity
- Does not resist or suppress
- Simply remains present
There is a natural distance between attention and thought—not separation by effort, but non-involvement.
When attention rests in itself, peace is not created.
Peace is revealed.
The Here Is Not a Place
Many teachings speak about “being here and now,” but this “here” is often misunderstood as a location.
The revelation clarified this:
“The here is not a geographical place, but infinite space.”
The “here” is the open field of awareness in which everything appears:
- sensations
- thoughts
- emotions
- forms
When attention rests as this space, rather than attaching to movements within it, an inner vastness opens naturally.
This is not withdrawal from life.
This is life without the burden of identity.
Giving Back the Illusion
A powerful message arose:
“Give back to Caesar what belongs to Caesar.
Give back the illusions to the world of illusions.
Give back the fraud to the world of the fraud.
And you will be free forever.”
Thoughts belong to the world of thought.
Stories belong to the world of stories.
The ego belongs to illusion.
Freedom comes not by destroying them—but by not giving them attention as identity.
The Fool Builds His House on Sand
When identity is built on thoughts, it is unstable by nature. Thoughts move. Change. Disappear.
Whoever builds a self from thought must live in fear:
- fear of loss
- fear of death
- fear of change
But when attention no longer builds a house in thought, there is nothing to protect.
What remains is:
- peace without cause
- joy without object
- freedom without effort
Attention Is the Soul
In this seeing, the following became undeniable:
- Attention is awareness
- Attention is spirit
- Attention is the source of life
- The quality of attention is the quality of the soul
Truth is not something attention looks at.
Truth is the parent of all attention.
This is why the Buddha did not describe God as an object or entity. Pure awareness needs no name. It is self-evident.
Final Word
The sinner was never forgiven—
because the sinner was never found.
When attention rests in Truth, the ego has no ground to stand on. And what remains is not emptiness, but living fullness.
Not someone being free—
but freedom itself.
